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One: I've (figuratively) fallen down with [community profile] storywrights (with "Resolution to write," at least). First, I failed to keep up posts on schedule when I didn't any replies/participation. And second, I (re)discovered that I just don't have the brain power / stamina to generate original narratives while also trying to balance and hold myself upright in my chair (and my wheelchair back has been broken for over two years -- it's stuck in a semi-reclined position, and the company no longer makes this model of chair, so I can't get it replaced). For a while I was beating myself up for being lazy / not even trying to extend my attention span. Then, I remembered that back when I was a teenager, I couldn't walk on my crutches and maintain a conversation at the same time, either. I think my muscle coordination activity and "generate spontaneous language" activity are trying to drive on the same roads, so to speak. And this is yet another reminder that cerebral palsy is also a form of neurodiversity.

If I work out a way to give myself upright back support, it just feels like the bottled-up stories would come flooding out of me...

2: But I think I'm on to something with my idea of "Plot modules," though:
SituationDisruptionReactionConsequence → | (New Situation)

I only managed to write out five of them for the whole of the six weeks I'd planned for "Resolution to Write," but using this outline form helped me realize that, in the past, when I've had problems with a story faltering, and getting (metaphorically) stuck in the mud, it was because I'd been writing a character's reactions without being clear (even to myself) about what disruption they were reacting to. Which, in turn, made the consequence muddy, which made it hard to shift to a new situation.

III: I think one reason I'm "meh," or "uncommitted" to my gender (even though I'm cis) is because, in this culture, your gender expression is judged as a success or failure based on how sexually and/or romantically attractive you can make yourself to the persons of your choice. And I Do Not Want to be either sexually or romantically attractive to other people. [/aroace things; annual Valentine's Day rant]

The Next to Last: "Grain Free," "Paleo-Friendly" Granola is not actually granola. It does make a good trail mix, however.

Fifth: (this came to me while writing all of the above): I think why I have no trouble writing Dreamwidth and Tumblr posts and replies while trying to hold myself upright and type, but my brain nopes out while I'm trying to write fiction w/o back support is the same reason I couldn't hold a spontaneous conversation and walk on crutches at the same time:

Having a spontaneous conversation with another person takes at least an order of magnitude more mental energy than monologuing (or talking to yourself). This is a written monologue (so is a poem, or an essay). Writing a fictional story is closer to having a spontaneous conversation with your characters (and the world they're in).

...Anyway. Just a thought...
capri0mni: text icon "Writer's Block" (blocked!)

Image description: The words "Writer's Block," with 'Writer's' smashing into a lengthened ascender of the 'k,' as though into a wall.


So: in revisiting Monster's Legacy, I've decided to rearrange the chapter order. From the beginning, I'd been working on the assumption that I'd start with the autobiographical poems in vaguely chronological order, and putting the poems based on "fables and fairy tales" somewhere near the end (like, maybe the penultimate chapter, before I close it up with more personal poems again).

I've now decided that the fairy tale poems should come first, because: 1) that's how people already categorize monsters, so the first (cognitive) step is less of a doozy, and 2) it will set up the context I want for my primary argument that: "Mainstream anxieties about disability are as just as rational as anxieties over the bogeyman."

And because this fables chapter will be my foundation, I've also realized it has to be broader and more substantial than it is now; it currently contains four poems, one of which I'm going to throw out,* one of which is based on a mostly unknown story (in America),** and a third which is based on an unfamiliar version of an 'old favorite'.***

That means: I have more poems to write! ... A-a-and part of me is wondering if this is a legitimate decision, or just a delaying tactic so I can put off finishing the thing, and face up to the risk and terror of actually publishing and selling it. I'm not sure which side of that argument is being voiced by brain weasels, either.


There's the "decision" half of my writer's block.

The "frustration" half comes from not finding the source material I want to link back to for a few of those new poems -- especially the poem I want to write about Hephaestus (yeah -- yet another relatively obscure character, but it'll involve name-dropping the really famous gods). I could swear (By Hermes, naturally) that, back in early 2011, I read that Plato argued that artists should not make images of Hephaestus, because people might take depictions of his physical disability as literally true, rather than a metaphor, and that would tarnish the idea of gods as perfect, and thus, would be blasphemous (This is what inspired me to title my brief folklore blog: "Plato's Nightmare/Aesop's Dream"). Only, now, no matter what keywords I put into search engines, I can't find anything even close to that.

Other stories I want to write (about), and now cannot find anywhere: An e-text of the 14th C. romance of Aesop, which spells out how he was physically disabled black African ex-slave (I can buy a book of the translation from Amazon, but I want to have an online version, durnit!), and the story about the "real" Mother Goose was Charlemagne's grandmother, and how she had one enormous, deformed, (goose-like) foot, and walked with a crutch.****

So I am now appealing to my circles for help with Google-fu. Halp?! Any ideas?



*Footnote One )

**Footnote Two )

***Footnote Three (content warning for suggested pedophilia without so much as impaired consent) )

****Footnote Four )
capri0mni: Text: "an honorable retreat ... not with bag and baggage, yet scrip and scrippage. (Scrippage)
... before I banish her for a month. She's insisting that I should at least be sure of my format before I start. And I suppose she's right.

The story I want to do is a retelling-reworking of Hans my Hedgehog. The biggest change I want to make to the original story is that the marriage to the "Good Princess" would come closer to the middle than the end of the story, and it would not break the spell. Hans would remain in his half-man / half-hedgehog form. After all, Hans's form brought more pain and shame to his father than it ever brought to Hans, himself. And also, it's a more interesting story if, after he inherits his bride's kingdom, he's given the challenge of being a monarch when his subjects view him as a monster... It's easy to inspire loyalty when you're pretty to look at...

But: right now, I'm wambling between two, or possibly three, different time-settings-tones. And whichever one I ultimately pick would radically change the mechanics of my plot. So I'm going to list the pros and cons of each one, and then, I'll post a poll for all you good folk to give me feedback. Whether your answers tickle me, or annoy me -- either way, I'll be clearer on my true desires (fingers crossed that there's no three-way tie).

Option One )

Option Two )

Option Three )

And now: The Poll!
(If you're reading this on LJ, and don't want to log into Open-Identity, you can just tell me which of the three options you think I should pick in a comment.)

Poll #14360 Help me Decide!
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So -- which time-setting should I choose?

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Present Day (near future)
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"Once Upon a Time"
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Combine the Two
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And finally, for your enjoyment and my inspiration... A key plot element of Hans-my-Hedgehog is his love of playing the bagpipes (they were never just Scottish). Here's someone playing a replica of a 17th Century set of the smallest of the German Shepherd's Pipes -- which would be the most likely right size for an eight-year-old hedgehog boy. Imagine being lost in a deep, dark wood, and hearing a sound like this drifting down from somewhere in the canopy above you:

capri0mni: Text: "an honorable retreat ... not with bag and baggage, yet scrip and scrippage. (Scrippage)
Because, frankly, I didn't like the one I did a few days ago.

Replacing "though" with an ellipsis gave me just enough room for a prettier font, as did updating the graphic from stylized quill pen and parchment to pencil and ruled notebook paper.

I've decided to make this my user image for NaNoWriMo, this year...

Now, if only my muse mice will give me an idea for an actual story to write, I'll be all set.
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And I'm not sure my heart is into doing it this year... For one thing, I'm still struggling with that Sword and Laser anthology story (The deadline is May 15; I'm working on it... hope to have a rough draft done by the end of tomorrow).

For another thing, I'd been planning, if I do write something for Blogging Against Disability Day, to put up a YouTube version... and I'm hating the new version of Windows MovieMaker -- they've taken out all my favorite title animations, and made the animations that remain inflexible, so you can't slow down the movement of the words to match the length of the clip. On the other hand, they've added new transitions and effects, and also a "pan" feature, so you can move over a single image... so maybe I could still make something vaguely interesting, and not absolutely fugly.

Anyway, if I do write something, it will either be:

1) a "rant" about the pernicious belief in the medical community that CP = mental retardation (which is hard because that so often comes across as "being intellectually disabled is being subhuman" which is a lie... but being misdiagnosed as ID is still horrible)

or

2) something about storytelling and that Disability Test I came up with, and why it's important.

And May 1 is coming up fast, and I have to decide even faster... Sigh.
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At least I've got the alliteration thing down, right?

Anyway, the 23rd is the day for this month's Disability Blog carnival; the submission deadline is the 20th. The theme is "Birthdays, anniversaries, and other days of commemoration."

The announcement of that theme is what inspired me to write If my grief over Mother's Death were a person.

And then, yesterday, the post where the blog entries to the carnival will be posted goes up, with this bit of writers' guidelines from the curator:

Quote:
"...let's give the lie to the fact that we in the disability community live lives of quiet sorrow and tragedy. Let's make it clear that we are a raucous group of people who can party with the best of them."
Unquote.

And suddenly, my memorial poem of grief seems a lot less appropriate (understatement of 2012? quite possibly).

The thing is, I still really want to contribute something. But the truth is, although I celebrate many things, inside my own head... I really have become socially isolated over recent years -- at least in "meat-space," as some people call it. Looking in from the outside, it really does look like my life is lonely and sad -- except for the Art Garden, I haven't actually been to a party with a group of people in almost ten years.

(And after this year, there will be no more Art Gardens). *cries*

But I still do "celebrate" -- just not in a way that you'll see defined in the dictionary. I mean, could [livejournal.com profile] naarmamo be considered a "celebration?" How about NaNoWriMo? [see footnote #1]

How about the pro-fun hoedowns? Those were pretty raucous parties, even if they only existed in our collective imaginations [See footnote #2]... And the muses know (even/especially the muses we "invented" for our stories) I've laughed out loud so much during the span of those dance parties, my stomach hurt and I felt dizzy at times -- I don't drink alcohol, but I sometimes wonder if I get just as drunk on laughter itself, as other folk get on booze.

Maybe it would be good for me to write to my strengths, and wax philosophical, like I did in this post from almost nine years ago (?): The True Meaning of the Season (for this wacky Pagan, anyway)

Anyway, I can't make up my mind about this, and I have less then ten days to decide (five would be better, so I could have five for the actual writing / making (if I decide to do art and/or a video along with a written piece)

So... Halp?
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Footnote #1: Speaking of, when I went to the site to grab the url, it reminded me that I haven't come up with a novel idea, yet... I'm actually thinking of recycling a couple of old Script Frenzy! ideas, but I can't decide between them... or if I want to do either or come up with something new... And actually, this is getting too long for a footnote, and should be its own post.

Footnote #2: Hey, fellow past Hoedowners! I'm thinking maybe of trying to gear up for at least one more pro-fun troll gathering for the 2013 Doctor Who Fiftieth... does that appeal to anyone else? (kind of hard to do a hoedown alone)...
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[Begin Quote]

My Novel, Oh my Novel--

Why are you doing this to me?

You keep me up late, with your chatter in my head, and then wake me up far too early with this?!

No! I will not go back and change it. If you wanted the beggar's ghost to be the mentor, instead of the wizard, you should have spoken up when we started out. Now, sit down, and be quiet.

If you behave for the rest of this trip, maybe we'll go out for ice cream later.

[End Quote]

FOUR HOURS LATER:

Okay, Fine! Have it your way! I'll write the extra dream scenes, but I WILL NOT rewrite what's already written. No, it doesn't matter that it makes no sense. I'll just stick the dream sequences on at the end-- yes, even if they actually happen at the beginning.

And no ice cream for you...
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It took me 29,100 words to figure out where my Chapter One starts (metaphorically speaking), now I need to figure out Chapter Two.

Long, rambling, exposition-- as much to clarify my own thinking as to spell things out for readers-- but it might help you know what sort of thing I'm looking for )

My $29K Question: Something is going wrong on the Otherworldly plane, and two of the "regular visitors" to the Otherworldly B&B seek help of my wizard and MC, to come to the Otherworld and help solve the mystery / fix what's breaking / find what's lost (Wizard and MC could 'travel there' via dreams or astral projection, or maybe just a form of self-hypnosis that allows them to see the world from a ghost's or bogle's vantage point).

But What? Why?

Oh, and gripe: You know what's annoying, for fantasy writers like me? Google's spell check does not recognize either the word "Otherworld" or "bogle," so every time I write them, I get red squiggly underlines.
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Poll #8521 writing a novel-on-the-fly is like wondering a maze, and I've come upon another dead end
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I've chosen my main character at random, from a snippet of a scene I wrote last year. It turns out she's a teen at an aloof and detached stage in life and has no emotional incentive to go boldly forth into anything. Should I:

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Rewrite her, at a younger, more enthusiastic age?
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Make her an audience for a completely different story, rather than a character in this one (just have another character tell a different story while she's sitting there and listening)?
0 (0.0%)

Scrap her entirely, and hand the Point-of-View role over to some other character, who is currently 'on the sidelines'?
0 (0.0%)

Keep her, but make her a secondary, rather than main, character?
1 (100.0%)

Or should I keep her as-is, but change the world she's in, by:

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Giving her a best friend that's her own age?
0 (0.0%)

Changing her starting family (currently, she's an only child of a single mother -- maybe she should have siblings by the handful, or two parents, or...)?
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Giving her family wealth and privilege it doesn't currently have, for her to rebel against?
0 (0.0%)

Changing the way she moves from her current family position to being fostered by the wizardy-mentor who acts as a catalyst for the plot?
1 (100.0%)

A third question (and a third Question type) for good luck -- freestyle: give me phrase, sentence, or idea -- anything that pops into your head:

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Yay! This is the first time since Wednesday night that I've had Internet and phone.

We had a big rainstorm Wednesday night, when we got about an inch of rain in about half an hour. All that moisture tripped the fail-safe on the outlet into which my Internet/Phone is connected.

Audrey reset it on Friday, but the Internet never came back, and I had to wait until she returned today so I could borrow her cell and call Verizon service. Luckily, they were able to fix the fault remotely, but it took a while...

In the meantime, four and a half days where I have no one to talk with but myself? Not a pretty mental space.

I need a burn phone.

In the meantime, in order to keep sane, I gave myself 2 24-hour writing challenges, and successfully met the first:

'Monster Teddy' as a short story, with a single conflict and resolution -- 2,297 words )



This second one, I did not meet [Points to the bad mental space, and not really being in a good condition to think about a story with tragic undertones], but at least I got something down, and the first bones of world-building]:

'Eloise, the Joyful Troll' as a short story, with a single conflict, and resolution )
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Oh, and there were things I wanted to rant and/or cheer about over the last five days, but I have a migraine now, and want to take a break from this screen for a bit...
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  1. So help me, I'm sore tempted to rewrite my NaNo Novel from the beginning. A little over half-way through (middle-grade and youth chapter books are often about 30k words-- at least, pre-Harry Potter) And furthermore, I'm tempted to cheat, and just add the second version onto the first, instead of pasting over, so I reach the 50k mark by having 2 different beginnings, 3 middles, and seven endings.



    (Caption to image link: A graphic calender representation of how much writing I've done so far on my NanoWrimo novel; six of the days are Code Green, seven are Code Yellow, and five are Code Red.)


    *Sputters* It's just that, as I'm writing, my brain wants to keep changing the voice and POV on me..., and as I'm writing one scene, I suddenly realize that in order for this one to work, I need to make three consecutive scenes ten segments back completely different. *whimpers*

  2. Tuesday's Nova was pretty neat-- all about the new studies they're doing around Stonehenge, doing experimental archeology, and bringing in experts from-non Eurocentric cultures. Back in the 1920s-30s, scientists didn't think you could learn anything from cremated remains, so when that's all they found at Stonehenge back then, they just dumped all the bones in a single burlap bag, and reburied in one of the old, original, bluestone holes. So modern-day scientists dug them up again, and sorted out the bits, and did dna analysis, and found that all the remains were from adult males, aged 25-40 years old. So their theory is, now, that it was a special ceremonial cite for royalty. So much for the idea that this was a matriarchial society, I guess. But now, I'm wondering if Stonehenge was the origin of the idea of King Arthur's "Round Table" (Originally, the lintels on top of the outer sarsen stones formed a continuous ring of tongue-and-grooved linked stones, and the whole surface was level all the way across to within a couple of inches, and the bluestones, which are the oldest in the circle, are all from Wales). The whole episode can be watched online (at least, in the U.S., and at least for a couple of weeks) here.

  3. The week before, Nova did a show on dogs, and the new things scientists are studying about how dogs differ from wolves. The narration script took the usual tack of how we domesticated them, selectively breeding for increasing tameness over generations, and it cited the fifty-year old Russian program of selectively breeding foxes for tameness, and reduced aggression, and how, when you deliberately select for that one trait, you get a whole bunch of other "doggy" traits, such as floppy ears, white spots and markings, and curly tails.

    But, as Audrey points out, wolves were hunting big game cooperatively long before humans were, so rather than wolves trailing along after humans, chewing on our discarded bones, humans were probably trailing after the wolves, much like ravens (We couldn't hunt mammoths, or elk, and the like for ourselves, until after we'd invented spears; but with a hammer stone, we could break open bones to get at the marrow inside). The wolves were not (probably) deliberately controlling which humans bred, and which didn't. But I bet there was natural selection to favor "tameness" in human pups, just like there was among the wolf pups, as the two species gathered around the kill -- kids who saw a wolf pup as a potential playmate and partner was less likely to get attacked than a kid who saw a wolf pup as a potential meal, or as a rival for food. And, I wonder if this trait of seeing a member of another species as a potential partner, and someone with whom we can have a symbiotic relationship (hello, chickens, horses, sheep, cows, etc.), is also linked with other traits we associate with humanness-- like language, and houses, and...


  4. Really liked the Matt Smith interview with Craig Ferguson, Tuesday night (American Telly late-night chat show), but I think the Beeb could have chosen a better clip for the introduction (that scene from Vampires of Venice where the Doctor first meets the women in white, and runs away) for an audience that mostly has never heard of the character. That's a great scene for those who already know the character, because we can see his sardonic wit and glee. But taken out of context, it's hardly suggestive of "the oncoming storm." Okay. So showing the "Basically... Run" speach (showing the faces of all the other TV Doctors) would have been spoilerific. But one of the official trailers would have been nice.

    He's taller than I expected, standing next to Craig Ferguson (who is often taller than even the male stars who come on his show). I squeed a bit over his polka-dotted socks.

  5. I know I had a fifth thing, coming in. But I've forgotten it now...

    Maybe something about my failing memory?:-/
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The deadline to submit something is Friday. This Friday. Forty hours from now.

The Theme is "Gold."

I want to write something based on the Irish Proverb: "A word is more enduring then Worldly Wealth," which fits the audience and venue (as we are all wielders of words, there, and this is the 50th Art Garden event).

But that doesn't actually mention gold, or the imagery of gold, per se. And we don't use gold as wealth in everyday life, anymore, and, and, and... It's taking me a longer, windier road than I want to get from the theme I was given and the idea I want to talk about.

And, and, and.

And I have a migraine. And hotels.com won't tell me specifically what rooms I might book have which barrier-free access features available, and they demand payment up front with no hope for a refund, and the price as just about doubled since the last time I did this (I think because people are scared of bedbugs in Manhattan proper), and *flail*

And I don't even think gold is all that pretty (I've always prefered silver).
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"Oh, the charge? He's being abusive and insulting, and he won't let me get any work done."




I'm trying to figure out what my Opening Image^ is, and distill the entire nature of reality of the "normal world" before my story takes off, and Things Change Forever (for my protagonist), in the first 10% of my story.

In my head, the metaphor for the Cure Imperative of our culture is his doctors, therapists, and nurses refusing to even acknowledge the reality of his wings, and repeating the mantra that he'll be free when he can walk. But if I start my story in his childhood, I won't have enough room to tell the story of who he becomes as an adult.

There's got to be a way to do it, but all day, my Inner Critic has been "shouting":

*IT WON'T WORK, AND YOU DON'T KNOW A THING ABOUT WRITING, AND YOU HAVE TO START YOUR IDEA ALL OVER, FROM SCRATCH! (And you're lazy, and good-for-nothing, and will die young[ish] and alone)*

I'd like to stab the bastard through the heart with a silver quill pen. I would.



*sigh*

I guess this is what you get when you're deeply emotionally invested in your story.


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^(I'm using the "Hollywood Plot" outline guide provided by Script Frenzy, even though I've decided on the graphic novel format -- I figure the plot structure is basically the same, since they're both primarily visual media).
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As I wrote in a reply to [personal profile] megaptera, just now:

"The problem with plotting ahead, and deliberately trying to avoid cliches, is that it's got me thinking about consequences, and the consequences of those consequences . . . . It's [as if] an entire "Choose Your Own Adventure" novel is [exploding] simultaneously, in my head."

I don't really want to post a poll, and put this up for a vote, because this is my story, based (more than any other story I can remember writing, to date) on my personal memories and philosophy. And in my own life, I am a dictatorship in a in a nation of One Citizen... if that makes any sense. So I'm not putting my story up for a vote ... even though I'd welcome discussion of consequences and impressions, to help me sort out my own conflicting thoughts.

But:

It often helps me make decisions if I write my options out in a question-and-possible-answers format. And it might quiet my Inner Editor down a bit, if I give it something that looks like "Putting Important Things in Proper Order" -- like giving a fussy baby a teething ring. So I am going to play with HTML coding, and try to make a really fancy list.




  1. Why would a government decide to establish a policy officially denying the existance of the Disabled?

    1. It came into power at a time of an epidemic (or some other catastrophe), and citizens were swayed by health scares -- allowed the XXX Party into power for health security reasons (as the people of Afghanistan allowed the Taliban into power, in preference to the chaos of fighting war lords)

    2. For propaganda: maintaining the facade of a society whose citizens enjoy perfect health allows an authoritarian-leaning government to project an aura of benevalence and reason, and thus deflect criticism from outside governments and dissidents within its own borders

  2. Why would a government decide to change this policy, in practice, if not in rhetoric?

    1. There is a coup, or simply a radical shift in government parties after an election, and the policy was such a well-kept secret that the incoming party members didn't realise how much resources it took to maintain it.

    2. Citizens outside the Asylum system took the erasure of disability for granted, so when there was a new large-scale crisis, there was demand for resources to be put in that direction, and as the asylums no longer had the resources to function, it became more practical simply to close them down

      1. Economic Downturn: depression. The government simply has no more money to pay staff, and utilities, or for the high tech medical treatments that are carried on inside the asylums (which are placed in remote areas, well-hidden from main population centers).

      2. OMG!WAR!!

        1. What happens if Home Nation become an occupying force in a foreign land?
          1. Massive draft, including the able-bodied staff of the Asylums; without staff, they cannot function, and so are closed down

          2. draining of capital and manpower from the homefront leads to popular uprising, which leads to a coup, and/or radical shift in Govt. (See II. A).

        2. What happens if Home nation is Invaded by foreign country?
          1. Home Nation fears that invading soldiers will take over asylums, and use the inmates as human shields; since the families of the inmates are continually promised that the children will one day be returned to them, allowing this to happen might cause popular uprising, so the asylums are shut down and evacuated (see II. A).

          2. Home Nation loses war, and becomes a colony of foreign country (See II. A)


[ETA: And Now, comes the Hard Part!]

It ain't the work that's hard, Ma'am -- it's the decisions!


  • What are the advantages of the "Depression" plotline?

    • Less chance of OMG!Trauma! and emopr0n for Gabriel

    • Fewer moving parts for me


    • What are the advantages of the "War" plotline?

      • If the war is off the homefront, could be a reason for the "Depression" plotline.

      • If the Home Nation is invaded, it would bring the world to Gabriel, albeit in a violent way, and thus show a contrasting cultural view toward Disability.
        • Because Gabriel is disabled and a child (double-whammy, as an underclass citizen), he can't travel the world by his own inititiave, and thus encounter "The Other."

        • And I want to show "the Other," that contrasting, contemporaneous, views of Disability are possible. If there were a massive health catastrophe, it could very well have been global, but only Home Nation invested such a massive amount of resources to its Asylum System.

    • On the Other Hand, War = A bazillion moving parts.
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    A bit of background:

    At new year's I made the resolution to write a novella as a Christmas / New Year's gift for my kith and kin. I was planning on taking a year to write it, instead of NaNoWriMo's insane month, because, after four "Successful" Nano's in a row, I wasn't having fun, anymore. I wanted to be able to slow down and actually talk and listen to my characters.

    I then, promptly, got writer's block.


Until this week. All of a sudden, I got an idea for a story. And then, character showed up -- a real character, not just an idea for a character. I could see her in my head; I could hear her voice when she spoke. So this week, I've started writing.

All winter long, I've been blocked. Summer comes 'round, and the story does too. It occured to me that writer's block might be the first cousin to depression, specifically to the seasonal depression known as S.A.D.

And the image popped into my head of "Writer's Block" as an ice dam, blocking the flow of creativity, until the sun's warmth melts it.

So that's what I wanted to draw today: To make word art out of that phrase, shaped and colored like an ice dam, blocking a river a river of words.

I still want to make that. But it's complicated to draw. And it will take more than one day. So I'll post it next week. In the meantime, here's the photo of a real ice dam that I'm using for reference and as a color pallette. I use the eyedropper tool in MSPaint to select different colors from the photo to use in my picture. Getting just the just the right shades of blue, gray, and almost-white to make something look icy is almost impossible (for me) to do by guestimate.

Now, I'm going to make some dinner, and watch Kenneth Branagh in Mystery!
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Because I can feel myself falling into a rut, and it's a particularly unpleasant rut.

But I'll need your help, okay?

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[Error: unknown template qotd]In a "Sword & Sorcery"-type world -- that is set in a 20th Century-like time, instead of the usual 15th Century -- a young woman goes on a long journey to solve the mystery of a recurrent vision.

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